Tuesday, April 14, 2020

AM CURRENTLY // april 2020

March 2020. It played out in a completely unexpected way (understatement of the century, I know). That, of course, has bled into April. But I think we're all beginning to recover from the shock of the situation and settling into it as best we can. It's our reality now, however apocalyptic it seems and truly terrifying it is. And blessing has come out of it, in bigger ways than I'm sure any of us imagined.

I'm trying to be consistent with blogging, but it's hard when there's so much on my plate and so many distractions. You can, however, expect to see my long-awaited Q&A in your feed/inbox VERY soon, so stay tuned! For now, let's get you up to date on all I've been accomplishing and learning recently.



I'm sorry if you're tired of hearing about the way this has changed our routines and messed with our mental health, but it has sort of overwhelmed everything. The COVID-19 pandemic snuffed out all my expectations for spring and it's been a huge adjustment.

I'm conflicted about being at home so much. I overwhelmingly miss going to church, youth group, the library, sports events, and big gatherings in general??? (Quarantine must definitely be driving me crazy). At the same time, my introverted nature loves the added flexibility and the unusually big gaps in my schedule. Although... it appears my to-do list thinks it needs to accomodate by growing longer and longer. *sweats*

More than anything, of course, I hope it all goes back to normal soon.

Snippets of quarantine life:

~ eating homemade bread for the first time in a long time (my mom couldn't get bread from the store for a while XD)

~ watching Onward the day it came to Disney+ (so fun and heartwarming!!)

~ registering for my first semester of college come fall (a more complicated and exhausting process than I expected, but it's doneeee)

~ sitting in the sun on a picnic blanket in my yard to read, study, and flick pesky ants off my feet

~ welcoming my brother home from university much sooner than any of us thought

~ getting sucked deeply into social media, which I didn't quiiiite have time for before (a problem that I promise I'm working on XD)

~ took driver's ed, which was cut short because of the virus, and acquired my license!

Shadow Hand by Anne Elisabeth Stengl


5/5 stars! I don't read that many time travel centric books, but this one is by far the most brilliant I've ever read. The way it came together just blew. my. mind. Probably my second-favorite Tales of Goldstone Wood book.

On the Fence by Kasie West


I love speculative fiction, but sometimes I need to take a break from the heavier genres and read a lighter contemporary. This is my first Kasie West read and by no means a disappointment. I ADORED it! Finally, a clean YA romance I can get behind.

A Time to Die by Nadine Brandes


My current read! I haven't managed to get into it yet, but the dystopian world already has me very intrigued. And it isn't taking much for me to warm up to the characters! I can't wait to get deeper into it.

{read and watch the amazing Q&As of Faith and Nicole, respectively}
Two words: CAMP. NANO.

I'm having a wonderful, chill time editing a big chunk out of Blue Like Sapphires this month. I just... This story is SO close to my heart. I love it to pieces. My critique partner just finished reading it (EEK) and gave me some great feedback I can't wait to implement. I'm hoping to dump it in my alpha reader's lap sometime next month, so that'll be fun. I haven't been working on Dusted Red very much, but honestly I don't think it needs much more editing before it's ready to be attacked by beta readers.

Yesssss. The beta reader call is coming soon, friends. SOON.

My new novel - the one I'm writing by hand - is still extremely early in the drafting process, but once Camp NaNo is over I expect to be scribbling in those pages more consistently. An official introduction for that is in the works, I promise!!


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It was a... well-done ending. Also a terrible, brutal ending. But I 1000/10 recommend this show because it's INCREDIBLE.

We're still going through Psych, and I hope to start X-Files soon because a beloved friend of mine won't shut up about it and has me desperate to watch it in full. XD At this point in time I've only seen bits and pieces.

{read Christine Smith's post TV SERIES ON DISNEY+ FOR THE WHOLE FAMILY}
~ Not Too Far and Forty5 // GAWVI (every song on his new album Heathen is amazing, but these are my favorites!)

~ Young Dumb & Broke // Khalid (can't remember how I ended up getting into this, but here we are XD)


~ Silence // Marshmello (I designate this the most INFP song ever)
Every now and then, I have this moment of overwhelming disappointment.

This is not what I wanted my spring to be like.

So many things I was looking forward to, cancelled or suspended.

Why is this happening?

I don't understand.

The moment crushes me. But the moment is just that - a moment. Because whenever it comes, it's like God gently reminds me, "Hey, I knew this was going to happen. I allowed it. It's all part of My plan. Now relax."

His peace passes all understanding.

It's okay to be disappointed. Right now, it's impossible not to be disappointed. But God's peace and joy are HERE, guys. Reach out for Him - surrender the worry - and I promise that what He pours into you won't disappoint at all.

The Lord's Truly,
Talk to me! What have you been reading? Which TV shows scarred you with their finales? How are you coping with quarantine? Fellow Twenty One Pilots fans, WHERE YOU AT??


  1. It's such a strange time that we are going through right now and it can be so hard with so many things being cancelled but we are not alone. <3

    My sister and I are watching Merlin right now (we're on the second season) and it is so good!! The characters are so loveable!! <3

    twenty one pilots!!! I've listened to Level of Concern so many times once it came out! My younger sister and I keep rocking out to it while driving my older sister crazy. XD So good!!!

    1. Amen. <333

      EEK really?? That's so exciting! The characters are indeed AMAZING. You'll have to keep me updated on your progress through the show. :D

      SAME. IT'S SUCH A BOP. And haha yeah it's definitely one to put on repeat. XD XD

  2. Kasie West is so good!! i highly recommend all of her books especially P.S. I Like You, Listen to Your Heart, Maybe This Time, and By Your Side. And i am been jamming to Level of Concern constantly!!!

    As i am considered an essential worker, i am still working during quarantine so my life hasn't changed much :/ If anything its gotten crazier..... Hopefully this is all over soon because i miss my friends :(

    1. Oooh I'll definitely be reading all of those at some point!! I've seen P.S. I Like You and By Your Side a lot!


      Oof, I'm sorry it's been crazy. :P You got this, though!! I, too, hope it's all over soon so I can see my friends again. <3

  3. Your alpha reader is over here drooling waiting for that boooooook...

    Level of Concern is GREAT tho you know my feelings on that

    Shadow Hand!!!!!!!

    <3 <3 <3

    1. I knowwwwww. I'm almost doneeeee.

      INDEED I DO. It's such a fantastic song!

      All the feels for that book!!!!


  4. Congrats on registering for college classes and getting your driver's license! Registration is always SO nerve-wracking. I remember the first time I registered, the system didn't know I had signed up to register on that specific day for some reason, so by the time I called the hotline and got in all the classes had already been filled. The university didn't want me to be able to try again on another day, so I just snuck in anyway and registered a few days later. Luckily, the times since then have been less dramatic XD what classes are you taking? do you have ideas for your major yet?

    ALSO I AM SO EXCITED FOR DUSTED RED TO BE OPEN FOR BETA READERS. Let's just hope my professors don't decide to dump any surprise projects or papers on me in my last month of school, and I should have the time !!

    Ahhh, your Camp NaNo experience sounds so nice . . . to be laying in a hammock on the Island of Editing, my favorite place in all the world, as a relaxing breeze blows by me and the gulls cry in the distance . . . alas, I am stranded in the Land of Insanity, fighting a monster called Completely Rewriting The Entire Plot Of My 200k Word Book On The Third Draft. I reckon I shall be here a while. Wish me luck.

    - Eleanor

    1. Thank you, Eleanor!! It IS stressful and I had a breakdown because of complications that kept popping up. But it's all fine now. XD And UGH yes it's such a struggle. My classes are a pretty even mix of basic, required classes every freshman has to go through and early Spanish classes that aren't set in stone yet. Which leads me to my major, which is Spanish!! I'm very excited.

      AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHH I'M SO EXCITED FOR YOU TO READ IT!!! And eep yes let's hope. XD XD It means so much to me that you want to beta read!

      Yeah it's been pretty laid-back! Granted, I HAVE been busy and it's been a struggle sometimes. But YESSSSS editing is soooo nice. :D Especially line-editing, which is what I'm doing. OH GOODNESS WOW good luck with that!! That is quite the undertaking. *cheers you on* YOU CAN DO IT.

  5. Ahhh, you're getting so much done!! TEACH ME YOUR WAYS, LILA.
    It's a very strange time, but you seem to have the right idea by making bread, homemade hits different. :P

    1. Am I tho??? I keep procrastinating on stuff and getting behind, so idk if you'd want me to teach you my ways lol! XD XD

      IT REALLY DOES. I love homemade bread so much!

  6. Sis, having all them crying was not good. Please, I already miss them, don't do this to me. I think it's other sis's fault that you are listening to Young Dumb & Broke, because she used to hum/sing it a lot.

    1. Mwahahahaaaa *sobs* I miss em too.

      Did she really now? Hmmmmm. XD

  7. Homemade bread has been one of the upsides of this whole thing. Level of Concern is sooo good!

    1. It has lol!! And YES I love that song to pieces.

  8. Ahhh! Congrats on getting close to beta reads! So exciting!

    Fresh bread is sooo good! I will say, one of the interesting things about this whole quarantine thing is my baking desire has slowly come back. At least, a little bit. I may have drained it all last weekend. But still, I haven't even wanted to bake a single thing in so long that it was nice to just have a little drive to do so.

    Speaking of drive, congrats on getting your licence! That's very exciting!

    I hope April treats you well!

    1. THANK YOU!! I'm so pumped about it!

      Oooh that's so cool! Baking is funnnn. Quarantine has awakened old desires and drives in everyone, I think. It's definitely interesting.

      Thank you!!! I'm so glad to have my license at long last. Hope April has been good for you too. <3

  9. (aw, thank you for linking to my post!!! <3 <3 I cannot wait for your Q&A - it's going to be EPIC. :D)

    Oh, man, signing up for college classes is sooooo scary. <3 <3 But at least you're one step closer! :D

    I hope you stay healthy during the rest of this quarantine season! (And the social media struggle is REAL, but you can push past it! :) )

    1. Oh you're BEYOND welcome!! <333 And that means a lot to me, I can't wait to share all the answers to your epic questions!

      IT IS. <33 And that's true, thank you so much for your constant encouragement, Nicole! You da best.

      Thanks so much, same to you!! (and I dearly hope so :D)

  10. I'M STARTING COLLEGE THIS FALL, TOO! I'm still not sure how I feel about that, to be honest. xD

    I'm so excited you're reading A Time to Die! It's one of my favorite books/series of all time EEP.

    I need to watch Merlin.

    There have DEFINITELY been unexpected blessings coming out of everything going on lately! One that I was thinking about the other day is that my friend who was supposed to have gone back to college is still home. We can't hang out but we work together, and I'm so glad I was able to keep her for a while longer. ;D

    Oh and CONGRATS on getting your license! :D


    1. AAAAAAHHHHH SO EXCITING!!!! It's scary, but we got this. XD

      I'm almost done with it and I'm SO enjoying it. <333

      Yes. Yes, you do.

      Aw that's nice!! I'm glad you get extra time with your fren! <3 But YES, little blessings like that are all around us.

      THANK YOU!!! :D

  11. "His peace passes all understanding." -LOVE THIS. So beautiful and true. <3

    Congrats on getting your license! That's a definite bright spot among all of this, I'm sure. And I'm glad to hear your writing is going well! I'll for sure be keeping an ear out for beta calls... ;)

    1. I love that verse. <333

      Thank you!!! Yes, it's great to have that now! Ooooh YAY the call is coming this month. :D :D


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