Tuesday, October 30, 2018

OCTOBER 2018 // snippets and snapshots

I recently fell into a "reading old posts hole," which means I procrastinated for a while by reading my old posts on this blog. (Fellow bloggers, don't deny that you've done it - we all do it. XD) As you may or may not have noticed, I've been absent from blogging for over a month now (due to busyness and a lack of motivation ugggh), and whilst I was in the depths of my reading old posts hole, I missed blogging. I missed coming up with exciting post ideas several times a month and having a blast putting those posts together. I missed talking with all of you in the comments. I missed my consistency, and I missed being motivated.

I'm not sure about the consistency part, lol, but I'm trying to get my motivation for blogging back. I'm trying to get the FUN of blogging back. And to do that, I'm going to take ideas that excite me and feel meaningful to me, and then I'm going to pour my heart into them.

Starting with a monthly recap of sorts that - unlike previous recaps I've done - has very little order to it. Prepare for a haphazard scattering of snippets and snapshots from my October!


I've been learning to soak in the beauty of individual moments. As someone who thinks WAY more than she says, I often get so lost in my mind that I block out the sights and sounds and smells and feels of my reality - my RIGHT NOW - without really realizing it. But lately I feel like I've been slipping back into that simple enjoyment of losing myself in the right here and right now, choosing to loosen the grasp my chaotic mess of a mind has on me sometimes.

The feel of a book as I hold it in my hands. The comfiness of a blanket tucked against my legs. A glimpse of cloudy sky and swaying treetops through the window. The sound of a car driving past outside as I try to go to sleep.

There's a certain peace in allowing myself to clear my head and soak in the tiny beautiful moments of every day. The tiny blessings God sprinkles around so generously all the time. <3

Shout-out to Emma from missemmareadsalot for being such a huge inspiration to me in this regard!


Evangeline wrote a wonderful (and super funny) post called 17 Things I've Learned in 17 Years.



No better way to hear from God, to know His will and plan for my life, to know what I should and should not do and where I should and should not go, than by the Word of God.

Whereas zero blogging and not enough editing has been going on lately, MUCH reading has been happening. XD In accordance with the TBR I talked about in this post, I read The Lost Girl of Astor Street by Stephanie Morrill in September and very much enjoyed it. More recently, I've read two Alex Rider books and Wires and Nerve: Gone Rogue by Marissa Meyer, and now I've started reading Entwined by Heather Dixon (which is already proving to be the absolute perfect book for fall, ambiance-wise).

I'm also slowly making my way through the masterpiece that is Les Miserables by Victor Hugo. This is one to take your time through and SAVOR, that's for sure.

I didn't love this one, but it was certainly entertaining!



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I can't just not talk about TØP, okay??? Their new album Trench came out early this month, and - to say more by saying less - I LOVE IT.

It's fun, it's fresh, and above all it's meaningful. There are so many hints, so many hidden messages, so many things to get us thinking. And I love how Tyler created a dystopian-esque world as the concept of the album - the world of Dema and Trench is so fascinating and symbolic.

Towards the end of "Leave The City" the first time I listened to the album, I realized, "Wait, this is it. This is the last song. I've... listened to this album in its entirety, and I can't listen to it for the first time ever again." It was a sad moment.

BUT. The awesome thing is, I can listen to it again. And again. And again. And that's what I'm doing.

(Gosh, I feel like such trash for their music. Probably because I am.)

I've also been listening to their older music, especially Vessel.



I cannot be anything but a complete Christian. I am not more complete on my best days and not less complete on my bleh days. Why? Because Jesus paid in full for my sin. It is FINISHED.


In time, I will leave the city
For now, I will stay alive
"Leave The City" by Twenty One Pilots

Hosanna Emily wrote a beautiful, encouraging post called Keep Burning, Keep Trusting. <3


Like I said, I haven't been writing a whole lot lately. A little bit, yes, but not nearly enough. It's been too easy to turn to more relaxing pastimes like sipping an Indian spice decaf chai while reading Les Mis. The thing is, once I do make myself sit down and write, it's never long before I get into it and don't want to stop.

I love writing. I know full well I do. But lately waiting for inspiration has not been an option and unfortunately, I've been treating it like one. (Which is why my Dusted Red Pinterest board is having a sudden growth spurt, lol.)

Other, less disappointing writing news is that I wrote and polished a flash fiction story within a week and sent it to Havok! It was nice to work on something different from my novel-in-progress for once. It's my first flash fic, but you can bet I'll be writing more in the future. :D


I sensed the siblings' presence beside me acutely, but didn't want to see their expressions. They knew what this meant as clearly as I did.
We were never getting out of here, and it was all my fault.
- Dusted Red by moi
(in which I make my characters do stupid things and then torture them for it :P)


I'm not doing NaNoWriMo because it would be too much pressure amidst all that's already going on in my life. Hopefully sometime I can do it, but this year I'll have to settle for trying my hardest to pull out of my writing slump.

My battle plan is to take a YouTube break all through November. And it actually hurts me to say that because I'm pretty much addicted to watching the BookTube channels and writing channels I've fallen in love with. Jessethereader, InsaneReader, missemmareadsalot, PeruseProject, Abbie Emmons - I've grown to love these channels SO MUCH. They're entertaining, inspiring, and... uh, devouring way too much of my time.

I think that to get out of my writing slump, I need to step away from YouTube and use the time I've been spending watching 30-minute reading vlogs and such (however epic they are *whimpers*) to work on macro-editing my novel and outlining its sequel. And writing more flash fiction.

I may let myself watch Abbiee videos because those are pure inspiration to CREATE, CREATE, CREATE. But that will be it. :)

So, that's sort of my NaNoWriMo alternative. Lame compared to the real thing, I know, but I'm excited anyway!


Condemning myself is not of the Lord. It is of the devil. Beating myself up about stuff is focusing on works instead of on the grace of God, which is sufficient for me.


Well, friends, I'm sorry if this post seems all over the place. You'll have to let me know down below if you like this set-up (or lack thereof, haha) or not. Either way, we stan an honest commenter. XD And tell me, is your fall as aesthetic as the pictures above yet? How do you feel about the cooler weather? I, for one, LOVE it. *burrows deeper into huge sweater*

I'll be back with a new post soon, m'kay?

The Lord's Truly,


  1. WHOO-HOO, A POST FROM LILA!!! I love the new picture!

    Haha, yes, I just discovered BookTube as well! And InsaneReader is absolutely hysterical! (Of course, Abbiee is amazing. XD)

    Hey, I kinda like this post format! It keeps it interesting and new! And glad to see you back! <3

    1. I'M SO HAPPY TO BE POSTING AGAIN!! :D And thank you, it was about time it got updated, lol.

      BookTube is so fun! And YESSS, InsaneReader is super funny. I've only just recently gotten into Abbiee's videos, but they inspire me so much. :')

      Okay, cool! I may or may not format this way for future recaps I may or may not write, not sure yet. Thanks for the feedback!

      Thanks, girl! <3 I'm glad to be back!

  2. I've missed your posts! I actually really enjoyed this. Glad lots have reading has been happening that always makes me want to write.

    1. Aw, really?? <3

      Okay, I'm glad to hear it! And thanks!! Usually reading inspires me to write too, but my writing slump has been a deep and dark abyss... And now I'm being dramatic. XD

  3. I was just wondering when I'd see a post from you! I'm glad to see an update!

    Is Wires and Nerve part of The Lunar Chronicles? I have started the series and I seriously don't know what happened to those five days that I read Cinder and Scarlet. I'm on hold now because our library doesn't have Cress...

    I really enjoyed the pictures and the church notes! Thank you so much for sharing, Lila!! :)

    1. Oh, and I totally get what you mean by Youtube taking up WAY too much time...

    2. Thank you, Clare! I'm so glad to have an update for ya! :D

      Wires and Nerve is a two-book graphic novel continuation of the series, sort of like a little spin-off. You'll want to wait to read them until after you finish the last book of the actual series, Winter. :)

      Cress is my favorite Lunar Chronicles book!! I hope that when you get your hands on it you enjoy it as much as I did! :D

      I'm so glad!!! I found the pictures on Unsplash and Pexels. You're so welcome, Clare - thank YOU for reading! <3

      Ikr, YouTube is EXTREMELY time-consuming. :P

  4. YOU CHANGED YOUR PICTURE!!!!!! Your hair looks lighter in this picture than in the other one. XD

    I need to read more. And edit more. I have a hiatus announcement tomorrow. YouTube is the enemy. XD I love Abbiee's videos. THEY'RE THE BEST!!!

    I'm checking out that pinterest board. I love that I can stalk pinterest boards without having an account. XD XD

    1. YES, I DID!!! I was ready for a new one. Really?? That could be because of the sun shining on it... *taps chin* Or it could be because summer has just passed and the previous picture was taken more around spring-time (I think). My hair usually gets a little lighter in the summer.

      I've done a lot of reading, but I've done BARELY any editing. It's a problem, yes. :P Hence the YouTube break, lol.

      Yessss, her channel is awesome!!!

      You do that. XD Stalking friends' WIP boards is so funnnnn.

  5. Lila!!!!!! I missed your posts a ton, girlie. Glad to see you back 💙💙 and I totally understand about looking for joy in blogging. That’s one of the reasons I took so much time off in September, and I think it’s coming back to me.

    The layout of this post was awesome and I loved it 💕 so glad to see words from you, and I hope all your motivation returns in full! (I have a serious bout with editing ahead of me, plus NaNoWriMo, so November is going to crush me under its heel, lol.)

    1. Faith!!! Aww, you're the sweetest! <3 I think the break was good for me, bc YES I think the fun of blogging is coming back to me too. I just hated how it was starting to feel like an annoying chore... *shudders* :P

      Cool!! Tbh, I sort of like the haphazardness of it. XD THANK YOU SO MUCH.

      Eeeek, good luck with NaNoWriMo! I understand the feeling of being crushed underfoot by crazy seasons of life, but don't forget to close your eyes and take deep breaths and enjoy Jesus' peace throughout it all, okay? <333

  6. Love this post, Lila!! <3 <3 so glad you're back ;).

    I loved the layout of this post! <3 ooh yes, BookTube <3. Abbie + jessethereader are the ones I watch regularly, along with A Clockwork Reader and a couple others if I have time. ;) it's very addicting!

    <3 <3

    1. Thank you so much, Allison!! I'm so excited to be able to chat with you and everyone here on my own blog again. ;D

      Thanks! <3 I enjoyed putting it together! I've been an ardent fan of jessethereader for quite a while now, lol. And I've only just recently gotten into Abbie, but I LOVE her channel now too. :D And oh cool, I used to watch Clockwork Reader all the time too, but I recently cut down on a number of channels so I wasn't watching so freaking many, haha...

      Oh yeah, it DEFINITELY sucks you in. XD


    Is it Christmas already??? >.<

    It's so good to see you back, I love the new picture!

    1. *grins huge* Yep! :D :D

      (It's not Christmas, though. *runs away screaming from all the Christmas songs and TV commercials popping up*)

      Thanks so much, Gray. <3 It's good to be back. And thank you!!

  8. Ahhh I miss blogging so much too. Looks like you an I both were swamped with school. Is it getting easier?

    I'm so glad you're back. <3 (Also it's good to be here too.) XD

    1. Yes. <3 In a school swamp AND in a writing swamp. XD School hasn't been hard - tiring, yes. But I do think it's getting better! I'm so glad yours has loosened up some!

      Me too, honestly! And I'm glad YOU'RE back. :D

    2. *School hasn't been VERY hard, is what I meant to say. Gracious, it's definitely hard at times. XP


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